You will leave everything behind. Your world is going to change drastically. You will feel out of place, but when you get to where you are going, you will adapt quickly.
You are not going to want to be a lawyer to gain your daddy’s attention anymore. You will discover new career paths. You remember how you used to get in trouble with the teachers for telling stories to your friends in class, well your communication skills will get you your first job. You will become the producer and host of your own radio and tv shows at 17, you won’t know much what you are doing initially, but you will be so passionate that you will give yourself to the craft and you will do it decently. And you will be mentored by and become good friends with the people that you idolize right now.
All your childhood friends will be gone, not because you don’t love each other anymore, but you will choose different paths. You will also meet new people that are going to support and inspire you. You and your sister will get along and love each other. Your niece will be your greatest gift. You will even get to name her. You will never have the relationship you want with your father, but you will have a healthy one. He will listen to your feelings and try to understand them. And you will understand that he is broken too, he is doing the best he can, so you will be patient with him.
See that shy, mysterious, smart and handsome young man you are crushing so harddd on, you will not spend your life with him like you are wishing now, but the two of you will fall in love in five years, it will be magical and the purest and most genuine and beautiful way you will ever experience love, but you will break his heart because you will not be ready for his love, and he won’t understand that to love you is to leave you wild. It will be your greatest disappointment, but you will forgive yourself. And maybe one day he will forgive you too. You will fall in love again, but never sooo intensely.
You will move back to your country and serve like you always wanted. But you will realize that being a humanitarian is not that big of a deal, in fact humanitarian organizations are part of the problem. You will learn that investing in people, creating jobs and contributing to the country’s economic growth is the only way to end Haiti’s paradigm of dependency and move towards sustainable development. So, you will attend business school with the intent of going back home again to make a difference.
However, you will fall in love with these European cities, where you will live and work, and do all the adventurous things you always dream of. It will be one of your greatest learning experiences. You will travel a lot, and I mean a lot. You will even go to Venice, and it is as stunning as you are imagining it. You will experience different cultures, meet people with different mindsets, and that will give you a different, even better perspective of the world.
10 years from now young girl, you will still be confused and uneducated about many things. You won’t be where you think you are going to be, but you will be on your way there. But most importantly, on the way there, you will meet God, you will be rooted in His words and He will become your best friend. He will give you great insights and direct your daily steps. So hang in there love, great opportunities are in store for you.