I want to plant roots with you, but I am scared you won’t help me water them.
I want to show you my imperfections, but I am scared you will only belittle me.
I want to let you in, but I am scared you will only cause damage.
I want to share and make sense of life with you, but I am scared you will only take me for granted.
You make me want to grow, but you sometimes bring out a ‘lesser version’ of me.
You give me a feeling of resonance, but also make me spin inside a perpetual cycle of self-doubt.
Being close to you mostly gives me solace, but also a twinge in my heart, a tornado of emotions.
I am in awe of you, but also want to cut you out.
I want to run to you, but also away from you.
What is it? Is your devilish quiet charisma? Is it trauma bonding? Is it because you are a riddle for me to solve? Is it the subconscious or ancestral forces at work? Is it the little things you do? Is it our shared interests and passions? Is it because you keep me striving to understand who I am and expand beyond myself?
When it comes to you, my mind skips right past a logical explanation. I think I am in love with you or I am just caught in a blinding fantasy.
“And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music.”― Friedrich Nietzsche
Well, there is a constant upbeat melody playing in my head, so I am always dancing (Literally). In other words, I am a big ball of energy most of the time, and I live for prodiguous moments I can’t put into words.
I am a spiritual and adventurous woman with endless supply of energy and also an amateur at many things, dancing, writing, cooking, filmmaking, etc… I also have an insatiable thirst for learning, traveling, meeting new people and listening to their stories with gratitude, respect and attention.
I was born and raised in Haiti but became a nomad at 15, when I moved to USA, an experience that changed my sense of who I am as an individual. Consequently, I am now navigating through life independently in Europe. I like to put myself in new and intriguing places, and activate my brain in new ways through interesting and meaningful conversations with others.
I have spiritual outlook about everything. I also firmly believe that God created me to be a valuable addition to mankind, to use my time, talents and energy to serve others and affect their lives positively. This is what drives my daily efforts. I am still learning how to be useful, but in the process, I want to share with you the collection of outrageous stories that is my life.
Let’s journey together!!!
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The Haitian Girl 